I am going to regret everything in the morning.
But don’t let that get you down, I often do regret anything in the morning.
Mornings are, after all, the worst.
Ride the wave and then the afternoon hits.
The tide settles just in time
For dawn.
In the morning, as long as I regret it,
Mind as well make it the best it can be.
For surely,
That task,
Is not too hard
Given that the worst part of any day,
Is just the morning.
Dear marigold,
I miss you, but life is very busy right now with balancing out the wants from the to do’s, the needs from the practicalities, the wishes from the physical possibilities.
Like I said before, goals are not set to be attained
Closer and closer, don’t give up on me now! A few more final pushes, then vacation baby! Summer is almost here, despite spring is being one big tease, despite the stuttered start to bright cycle of the year. But soon, so soon, the summer bounty of awesomeness will shine down upon us! Keeping up with the stride, keep pace with the herd, sail past, then relax into adventure.
So as it turns out, when spring has summed up to be an amazing 3 days thus far, I waited too long to start the weeding of the garden process. There are weeds out there bigger than small children, an army of angry green spiky soldiers who have staked their ground. Battle against this fortified enemy is rough and tough and hard on the back. The vines that seemingly have no beginning nor end have crawled out of nowhere and have taken over the garden like urban sprawl.
Next year, weeding starts in winter.
Things to do before vacation in one month and five days from today, presented in no particular order:
1. Design, test, and execute dessert menu for new restaurant
2. Train two people, one at La Sirena, one at El Che
3. Hire a person for El Che
4. Make two dinners worth of food for 30 people, store and freeze
5. Decorate paddle boat in the “mystical creatures” theme
6.Talk to Shortbread about campsite layout
7. Stretch daily
8. Don’t Panic
9. Plan birthday party at the house for this weekend
10. Weed the garden and plant all the seedlings
11. Revamp menu at La Sirena
12. Look up yoga studios close to work
13. Gather supplies for 5 days camping trip
14. Clean my bedroom
Impress yourself first, before anyone else.
Figure out what you think first, before considering the opinions of others.
You are your own harshest critic, after all, so embrace that personal power based on insecurity, and turn it around to be your greatest asset.
I used to get mad because for so long my bosses and employers did not value the skill that I brought to the job. The underlying philosophy that you are always replaceable- no matter how fast, clean, and impressive your performance- always bothered me. I am UNIQUE! Reward me! But really, I was going about it all wrong. You must make yourself replaceable so that you can continue to move up the ladder. You cannot be promoted unless there is somebody who can fill your shoes. I am learning to not let myself hold me back.
Direction and distraction, I need both to function properly. I need to focus, but I need to not get obsessed. I follow the carved path, but if you move too fast you miss the details.
At odds again, The Gemini’s Dilemma.
Searching for the perfect balances involves a lot of irony and a lot of contradiction, a lot of harmony and continually chasing the rhythm.
Although I do not adhere to my new year’s resolutions, I still keep the goals steadfast in my mind. While the goals may not be acted out directly, the sketches remain etched in my continual desires to fulfill them.
The year has almost made it half-way around the calendar, and I have not had the most successful track record: wine drinking remains a favorite pastime enhancement, my sugar addiction is gently keeping my attention, the bi-daily stretching often gets stuck in child’s pose, exercise is consistently rained out, my love for aged cheese remains a constant. Yet, still, I echo the goals of self- restraint, of tea filled evenings, of healthy and delicious dinners, of yoga class, of meditative calm to hum me to sleep.
There is still time to raise the grade to a passing c before mid-term evaluations, young lady, so good luck.
marigolds forever 