Starting off the new year with that classic resolution stuff, the inclination to make myself a better person and a happier girl. I want to feel good about myself, I don’t want to get caught up in my own hang ups about wanting to be more, wanting to be different, making goals and not reaching them. I don’t want to keep thinking about self improvement, I want it to actually happen. I don’t want to hide from what scares me through a mask of food or alcohol abuse. I don’t want to do things out of boredom. I want to find inspiration in the ordinary, I want to find happiness on my own terms.
Like always, to ring in the new year, for the first month I am treating myself properly by following the right diet. You are what you eat, I preach it all the time, and it is time to follow my own advice. Eating properly is the first and most important step for self respect. This means eating nutritionally dense food that has minimal processing. Respecting the vegetable, avoiding the sugar.
It is not a diet, it is pressing the reset button, rebooting my appetite, focusing on putting my health before fun, reestablishing a system of rewards that is not based on cookies and bourbon, but based instead on inner happiness and finding peace with reality.